Jenn: Confession's of a Photography Student

Hey friend nation,

I’m back in Charlotte, NC after spending 70 days in Wichita (Derby) Kansas with my boyfriend Marc. I think we get along so well is because our humor is the same. I learned a ton about myself when I was in Kansas. I also got a taste of what my life could be like if we decided to settle down. Right now I’m trying to get my act together and look forward to school and making photos again. I did some portraits when I was there but now it’s time to get my head in the game and narrow down what I’d like to do. I’ll get to that more later. The trip to and from Kansas was pretty impressive. 21 hours straight there (which I recommend no one doing, ever) and around 19 hours back stopping in Nashville to sleep. The trip there started off pretty interesting so I decided to write a captains log. Here it is in honor of finishing a voyage.

8:45. 7.14.12 
Leave home. Car is masterfully packed. Cats in carrier, not making a peep. Got gas. Navigation on. Set and ready to go.

9:15. 7.14.12
Silently riding along. Taking on our task. Figuring out cruise control. Holding hands. Almost to highway 85 where we will officially begin.

9:26. 7.14.12
Something smells.

9:36. 7.14.12
There went our skid plate. 85 and over was a hefty job that it couldn’t stand up to. Something really smells.

9:48. 7.14.12
Something smells and the desire to make sure the car is ok weighs heavier. Pulling off to check things out off the 74, at a BP in Lake Something Wacko.

10:00 7.14.12
Cat shit in carrier. Cleaned with out with feminine wipes. Jenn washed her hands in mens bathroom as the woman’s had no soap. Both sanitized our hands. Marcus sprayed his cologne to help mask cat scent. Car is fine.

10:07. 7.14.12
Smells worse. Rolling windows down to fix scent.

10:16. 7.14.12
Either we have gotten used to the smell or its been cured (mostly) by AC. Tiny sprinkles of rain now and then. Radio doesn’t work. Balls.

10:21. 7.14.12
Stand corrected. Radio works. Missed the Woody and Wilcox show by 21 minutes.

10:45. 7.14.12
We are in the mountains! Apple-ah-tchen..not Apple-ay-shun. Learning all the time. Still smelly.

11:06. 7.14.12
Sultan’s of Swing (I thought it was Suede) comes on radio and Jenn gets scooled on the band. Dier Straights. 5 miles away from getting back on 74 to 40 where we will spend the majority of our trip.

12:14. 7.14.12
Stopped at Piolot some where on 40 for lunch. Got a tire gauge, and Subway Sandwiches. Cleaned out kitty cage again. Credit card has a crap magnetic strip and is cracked. Mountain people have a unique look. Lost my black pen.

12:46 7.14.12
Made it to TN! Still in the mountains. Had a Rally Car moment while Marcus masterfully hugged the corners. Knoxville is in 52 miles. Called the home and made the maternal character aware of the smell. She is now convinced of Marcus’ unfailing love for Jenn.

15:11 7.14.12
Jenn is now driving and has been since one. After nearly getting side swiped and running off the road towards a cop, the fun ended when we hit a massive thunder storm. Now that we had a place to stop after scaring the piss outta Marc we are again on our way. 13 hours and change from our destination.

16:41 7.14.12
Been in Nashville traffic for an hour. Second guessing our directions but is now confident we are on the right track after filling up for the 3rd time. Frustration and deep want to be home is up while the need to piss is now way down. Cats are fine. I found my black pen. Marcus is now driving. God speed.

17:57 7.14.12
We have made it to Kentucky. Birth place of Abe Lincoln. I like the blue pen better.

18:35 7.14.12
We stopped in Arby’s for a quick bite and pee. Not int that order. Apparently when you order a sweet ice tea they hear the ice part and the phantom sweet tea was what was on special. On the road again and alas the fucking rain caught up to us. 612 miles to go.

19:17. 7.14.12
I was lazy and forgot to mention that now we are in Illinois. If its not rain slowing us down its cops, and if its not cops, its DEER. Estimated time of arrival is at 3:45. Thats a little over 8 hours. Trying to think of it like it is to Wilmington beach and back. Lets hope there ware no more delays. the cats may be dead.

00:00 7.15.12
Stopped at a Petro-Mart to pee. Passed through St. Louis. Wasn’t a fan although the acritecture was impressive to Marc. After getting through traffic that was tedius the ride was then enjoyable. We no longer have the scenery to entertain us, we now have to entertain each other. Oh and the cats are now making it their mission to escape our version of The Rock. This place has its features.. casheir told us his life story. He hates his co-worker, his mom got married today, he got a flat tire earlier. I questioned his sexual orientation from the tongue piercing and feminine manneurisms until he told us he was a single father and that his mom was watching his kid for a week. He is excited over this. Back in the car for the final 4 hours.

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We got home close to 5 am. 6 am est. Got cats situated. Called the home and we went to sleep only to wake up 5 hours later. the frest of the day was getting breakfast watching TV and getting dinner. Monday was full of learning where to go. PIcked up van from the airport and went to the bank that is 900 miles away. went to the store and watched tv.

My hopes for the future:
There is no doubt in my mind that I want to spend the rest of my days with this guy and his 4 children. He is so remarkable and has plenty of insight when it comes to operating a business and managing people. My hopes for the next 3 quarters is work hard enough to graduate in June. I plan on then moving to Kansas or Arizona (where ever Marc is working) and bringing my studio with me. I want to then take teaching courses for that state and see if there aren’t any schools/ community colleges that I could help out with along with setting up a mini school for enthusiasts about photography and photoshop. I then want to continue with my portraiture and fine art work and get a solid base to start putting money away. I keep telling myself this is doable. Being away from Marc really does suck though. It’s only been a day and i find my excited for 4 o’clock to roll around so he can come home to me…..oh wait. Long distance relationships isn’t easy I’m finding out more and more and more. Tonight will be the first reaction from the kids about me not being there. Hopefully they will hardly notice. It’s spaghetti night. I miss that guy and I love him with all my heart. Even his mother and her husband and his sister mean the world to me. They are genueinly GOOD PEOPLE and its hard to find people like them anymore.

Time to get up. Shower off. And form a way of surviving with out him for a while. His company is taking us to Vegas the first week of November. I did photography in Jamaica for some of the employees there and maybe make more connections this trip too. Love you guys. Keep us in your prayers. Do great things.

Jenn

juiceitupale asked: Hello, Im Gonna Start The Reboot Soon, And I Was Wondering How Many Times A Day Do You Drink The Juice?

I suggest 4 times a day. If you feel hungry, drink more. I think the ratio is 70% veggies, 30% fruit. Make sure you get a lot of water too! Gonna be honest and say its not easy. My best suggestion is filter all your stuff so the juice goes down easier. :)

Hey guys,

Sorry about not posting in a while. Marcus has been on my nuts about it which rightfully so! Last week I had assignments and things due so I got to focus a little more on school which is good. Once I get a lot of these assignments underway I can post a lot more. I am officially down 20 lbs! (as of Sunday) Hopefully down a little more now. I’m having a hard time swallowing the green stuff so I made a couple of tips on how I can get it down.

TIP 1:
Hold your nose. Although it’s harder to do this in public it is, I find, most effictive.

TIP 2:
Get a straw. My sister taught me this trick. If you are having a hard time tasting it like I am you can put the straw towards the back of your mouth and then drink. You may still be able to taste it but it’s not as crappy.

TIP 3:
Be in a heated discussion while you drink it. That way you wont think about the grossness.

I know this is a little immature but if any of you are like me the taste is weighing on me. I’m finding that I’m just not drinking because I dont want to taste it. That equals not getting enough calories which equals retaining water which has the negative results on the scale… awesome. So I’m trying to pound back the green shiz. I really need to drink more than I do so if yall have any tips what so ever other than putting this pond water through an iv lemme know.

School has been going great. I did a water color series where I took photographs of these seascapes (Waterscapes) and then printed it out on water color paper and then took water colors to them. They look pretty great. I’ll post a couple soon once I figure out how to scan them in. I did an ok job on my color managment but i was in a bit of a half ass mood that weekend. I shot a wedding over the weekend which was a nice change. My cousin got married and it was a cute little chapel. I didn’t feel the urge to eat or anything because I was shooting. That and they had BBQ which I love but I’ve been craving a lot more clean things like steamed broccoli and marinated feta. Don’t get me wrong, I do oh so love BBQ, I’m from carolina, best in the world but right now I feel like eating something I could coat in greatness not transfats. Who am I kidding bbq sauce is greatness. :) I’m ending this coversatioin since I’m talking in a circle. Mothers day was a little harder to resist. They had these amazing looking subs and goods. I did eat some cellery and I think my guilt kicked my stomachs ass for it because I felt horrible that day and next.

I did try some steamed broccoli Jessi steamed on monday night. IT WAS SO GOOD!!! Food is going to taste unbelieveable. I might go on an all juice diet for the rest of my life just so I can keep food tasting orgasmic. I tasted a smoke salmon dill dip and it still tasted so far nastier than I remember. I’m not hating I’m sure some of you dieters might have a new craving but me…not so much. I claim I’m allergic to it. In large doses I’m pretty sure I am. Does anyone out there have any crazy cravings? I’m almost done with my asian cuisine faze I think. I can’t wait to start cooking again. I have such an amazing outlook on how delicate food is and how cooking is really an art. Major kudos to those chefs out there.

So I’m still on the HCG died (sorta) and in 2 weeks I lost 10 pounds. Hopefully this week I will have lost the same. My trip is In just over 20 days and I’d like to lose another 20lbs. Then once I’m back from my trip we are going to celebrate fathers day the next weekend and my baby gets to come visit me (hopefully) and we have all access passes to this christian concert I’m shooting!!!! Major great things are happening. I am so utterly blessed.

I hope everyone is feeling great and energetic. Please keep a smile on your face and work hard. I’m very happy with my progress and so should you all be. I promise to blog more often as I have more time. Have a good one!!!!

Love you all
Jenn

            Most of you heard about the verdict of the North Carolina’s definition of marriage. Voted May 8^th, it is said that North Carolinas definition of marriage is between a man and a woman. I’m sure a lot of people are either outraged or content, hurt or celebrating.

            By most of my posts you may see that I am a Christian. I believe in the love and grace of Christ. But the ignorance and the vile acts against gay people are horrendous, savage and unjust and this bill that was passed is no exception.

            There is a difference between church and state correct? We came to this country after all to flee from religious persecution. Why do some people find it necessary to force a belief on marriage in the government? My religious belief can stand-alone. My government though should NOT have a say on what is and what isn’t marriage.

            Gay people have a right to be together, to love, to cherish and to be LEGALLY MARRIED; now if that’s not in your religious beliefs fine but it shouldn’t matter to the government if two people want to get married or not. Who cares what someone thinks marriage is the fact is that if two people love each other they deserve the same respects as any other couple.

When you get married you receive benefits. These include:

• Obtaining insurance benefits through a spouse’s employer.
• Taking family leave to care for your spouse during an illness.
• Receiving wages, workers’ compensation, and retirement plan benefits for a deceased spouse.
• Taking bereavement leave if your spouse or one of your spouse’s close relatives dies.
  Receiving Social Security, Medicare, and disability benefits for spouses.
• Receiving veterans’ and military benefits for spouses, such as those for education, medical care, or special loans.
• Receiving public assistance benefits.
• Inheriting a share of your spouse’s estate.
• Receiving an exemption from both estate taxes and gift taxes for all property you give or leave to your spouse.
• Creating life estate trusts that are restricted to married couples, including QTIP trusts, QDOT trusts, and marital deduction trusts.
• Obtaining priority if a conservator needs to be appointed for your spouse — that is, someone to make financial and/or medical decisions on your spouse’s behalf.
• Filing joint income tax returns with the IRS and state taxing authorities.
• Creating a “family partnership” under federal tax laws, which allows you to divide business income among family members.
• Suing a third person for wrongful death of your spouse and loss of consortium (loss of intimacy).

• Suing a third person for offenses that interfere with the success of your marriage, such as alienation of affection and criminal conversation (these laws are available in only a few states).
• Claiming the marital communications privilege, which means a court can’t force you to disclose the contents of confidential communications between you and your spouse during your marriage.
• Receiving crime victims’ recovery benefits if your spouse is the victim of a crime.
• Obtaining immigration and residency benefits for noncitizen spouse.
• Visiting rights in jails and other places where visitors are restricted to immediate family.
• Receiving family rates for health, homeowners’, auto, and other types of insurance.
• Receiving tuition discounts and permission to use school facilities.
• Other consumer discounts and incentives offered only to married couples or families.
• Living in neighborhoods zoned for “families only.”
• Automatically renewing leases signed by your spouse.
• Filing for stepparent or joint adoption.
• Applying for joint foster care rights.
• Receiving equitable division of property if you divorce.
• Receiving spousal or child support, child custody, and visitation if you divorce.
• Consenting to after-death examinations and procedures.
• Making burial or other final arrangements.
• Visiting your spouse in a hospital intensive care unit or during restricted visiting hours in other parts of a medical facility.
• Making medical decisions for your spouse if he or she becomes incapacitated and unable to express wishes for treatment.

THIS IS WHAT GAY PEOPLE ARE FIGHTING FOR.

They don’t give a rip what you think about them. They don’t care if you approve of their life style or not. They don’t care what religious groups tell them. They don’t care how often they are persecuted, hated, and discriminated against they are. THEY WANT THE RIGHT TO BE LEGALLY MARRIED.

Now if your good book says that marriage is between a man and a woman than you have the right to believe that. You have the right to say what you believe because of your freedom of speech but to be vicious and callous and use derogatory language than you have learned absolutely nothing from your own religion and God may need to have a talk with you. I am highly disappointed in my home state. Civil rights means rights to everyone. I am discussed that it is 2012 and we are still going through this.

Oh and if you think for a second that the President of the US is standing up for gay people take a look back. He has done NOTHING for them. President Obama used this as a campaign tactic, not to be a voice for gay people. Get it right.

This is all I have to say about this issue.

Hey everyone, 

Sorry I didn’t post at ALL this weekend. It wasn’t really one for the books. I had to do a printing assignment all weekend on top of a lot (and I mean a lot) of family drama. On the plus side though I feel really good and although I only lost 5lbs last week that is a total of 15 pounds closer to my goal.

Saturday I got stood up by my brother and law and sister twice. Not really I went to the farmers market and got there right when they were leaving and I didn’t see them. I did get to see the craft barn that is only open on Saturdays. I saw these hand knitted baby blankets that gave me baby fever for at least 4 kids (hey I need something to occupy all the ones I wanted) and then got to meet an artist who took a class in painting once and over 7 years perfected it enough to do it on envelopes and cards and even flower pots. The next lady I met makes organic dog treats. She also makes waterless shampoo for dogs which I never really had heard of before. Next I met a lady who was pretty….natural? She makes these paintings out of recycled newspaper and egg shells. It was pretty impressive the work she does. I liked a few of her paintings and I got her card. She said she does custom work too in case anyone needs any recycled wall art. I then went to EarthFare where I was hoping to see my brother in law and sister but yet again I missed them by that much. I did see a machine that makes peanut butter and I got free soap and this girl was talking to me about a gluten intolerance and how she has felt good after her life style change.

This weekend I did learn how my sister feels about Marc, that parents can be rash and irrational and how (again and I don’t know why I don’t understand) Marc loves me the way I am. Oh and we watched this thing on Netflix together about Jamaican food. Wow. I drank a lot of fruit, cucumber and tomato juice over the weekend and almost cheated last night BUT DIDN’T. I am really blessed with the network I’m in and all the people I know.

When I said I had a rough weekend it was pretty gnarly. My dad is getting married to a person I don’t know in a country I’ve never been to with a language I don’t speak. I’m glad hes happy but I feel like how he introduced it to me I had lost the rest of my daddy-daughter relationship and gained a total “bro/bro” relationship. Still. Bros before hoes right? I’m excited for him but I still feel that my mother needs all the love and support. She’s putting 3 children through school and because we are all over 18 he doesn’t have to pay child support. Yeah he gives us money when we need something or maybe when we ask for it but it’s not the same. I gave Mom $900 dollars to answer bills and unpaid things and Dad can afford an engagement ring? I know this is a lot of personal information but because who really gives a shit if you gossip, and this is my online journal I can really say what ever I want.

I also learned that God is everywhere. He’s in the things we find funny (not mean things just silly things) he’s in the words people speak or text to us, He is in quiet moments, he is in loving moments, he is in tearful moments. Marc told me that whatever I was going through this weekend is too big for me and I gave it up to God (once again) and I immediately felt better. Dare I say it we were even laughing last night. I’m tired of stress and I think that’s what prevented me from losing more last night. Here are some verses that I found to kind of encourage those who are going through “bitch slap” moments:

Proverbs 24:14 Know that wisdom is such to your soul; if you find it, there will be a future, and your hope will not be cut off.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

We weren’t designed to carry around difficulties or hardships or pain. (That’s why the weight keeps coming back) but we were designed to live a hopeful and joy filled life. One that is full of understanding, patience, things that smell good… love? We are here to take comfort knowing the one upstairs “has got it.” He is far better at driving this crazy train than I am. I hate how often I forget that. And how easily. Or how I do know it yet I want to still do it my way. Really??!! The guy who can make trees and little cute animals yet calm the seas and the same guy who created the stars and earth and everything on it can’t handle my walk in the park? If you depressed. Or if your down. If your discouraged, lost, or maybe just tired today I promise things will get better. Why don’t you take a nap in the sunshine through a window. It’s warm there. And even if you don’t know God isn’t it great knowing there is a higher power that is watching out over you? Maybe you can’t see him as your Heavenly father right now but He can be your friend. I think being a christian is a friendship not a religion, I think the Bible is a love letter not a book of rules of does and don’ts. Have faith guys.

SO now I have to leave for my class tonight. Tomorrow I plan on tanning, cleaning my house and getting my ears pierced. I can’t wait to hear from some of you on how things are going in your life.

Love you all,

Jenn

uys,

            Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I was at my Mom’s place pretty late. I started the hCG yesterday! I’m sorry I didn’t weigh in yesterday or today to tell you the difference. I sweated a ton last night because my AC is pretty old. (I’m talking late 1960’s). Yesterday I turned in equipment and then went to the print lab to study some vocab for business class. I heard this and that about business and how some people learn things from it and others don’t take away as much as the other students. I am glad to say I am one of the students that is learning a great deal. I love knowing the vocabulary and I enjoy some of the exercises. What’s great about this class is I can ask questions and because Prof. Crosby is still in the business he has advice coming right out of his pocket. I LOVE THAT! I love how all my teachers bring something different to the table. It’s so inspiring to see all the avenues of photography. I would love to teach one day. Absolutely love it!! Not to mention a little bird told me The lovely BaronS is coming back to grace us!!!!! For serial.

            Yesterday was a pretty good day. I drank straight tomato juice with a hint of watermelon. I actually loved it!!!! I drank that again before I left. I decided yesterday that I’m going to divide my weight goal into three sections. Once I reach goal one I want to get my concealed weapons permit. No I’m not gun crazy and I don’t think I’ll be toting one any time soon but its just one of those bucket list things. My second goal I’d like to get my motorcycles license. My brother has a crotch rocket and he was thinking about selling it. I was hoping to try it out for size and see if its something I would like before he does so that’s weight goal number two!! And once I reach my final goal I want to take those nearest and dearest to my heart to Key Largo and eat at that hole in the wall $1 dollar sushi gem we happened upon a couple years ago. I can’t wait. The juicing isn’t becoming such a huge durastic challenge anymore. I mean I miss eating something warm but I feel so incredible. I just wish my back would start hurting. I’m blaming my mattress which will be flipped tonight.

            Today I woke up, went to Moma’s to get my brother in law and sister and we decided that we were going to do a day trip to DuPont State Forest and then go fishing at this lake not far from there. We went to Natural Blendz to get something to fuel us. I got a “Spare Apple” which was mint, apples, cucumbers, and ginger. It didn’t suck. We then went to Walmart to get worms to go finishing then we went to pick up my camera. We then went to the Mountains!

            Getting there I was so excited to hike on a trail and see what my body could really handle. We hiked down to one waterfall and then decided to hike down the base of it and then back up. Really only around 3 miles but a lot of it was up hill too! Go Jenn. That shit was hard. I got the shots I needed and then we went fishing.

            Tomorrow I was going to Mom’s place to weigh in and then go to the office to pick up my paper or run to Borders and buy more and then go to the farmers market and then to school to print. If I don’t finish there then I’ll have to go to my studio to shoot. I still have to shoot that black shirt. Grr…

            Our new juicer came in today! We got a Breville Juice Fountain Plus. We really enjoy it. I still like filtering everything I juice since pulp freaks me out.

            EVERYONE TELL MARCUS IT’S OK AND NOT TO FEEL WEIRD. CALM DOWN SUCKER…. YOURE SO FAR AWAY FROM BEING ANNOYING. (that was just for you <3)

            Today I was craving something hot. As in spicy. I guess the ginger in my breakfast kind of set a trend. I Really don’t want to go off the diet at all and my God I am tempted constantly. My sister suggested taking a tablespoon of hot sauce to cure it. She sait all it is vinegar and pepper. So her and I downed a tablespoon of Texas Pete… holy shit. I remember Texas Pete being a lot milder than that. Makes me wonder what other foods are going to be so packed with flavor. I am still doing the apple cider shot in the morning, B12, Omega 3, Biotin, and the hCG. I’m also using tea tree shampoo/body wash and Tom’s natural toothpaste. Trying to stay as natural as possible. Doesn’t mean that if I was thigh deep in Bojangles I’d go crazy. It’s the little things. I’m actually craving chicken more than anything now. Sushi is still very high on the list but now chicken is kind of a interest of mine. We will get there eventually. Jamaica is in 35 days. I got a lot to do between now and then. Mostly school wise.

            Speaking of school (again) I signed up for next quarters classes! I’m excited. It’s going to be a ton of shooting!! Photo Essay 2, Special Topics 2, Creative Concepts, and Marketing. I have school Monday morning, Tuesday afternoon, Thursday afternoon and night. Thursday is bogus but after 10pm Thursday I’ll be done for the week (other than shooting). I’m getting close to graduating! Just a few more quarters.

            I’m going to bed now to talk to my man. We haven’t had a chance to talk all week since he was battling Poseidon in San Diego. Poor guy felt like crap today and got a shot. Quivers.

            Love you all

Jenn

Hey guys,

            Day 11 is up! About to start Day 12. Bring it Thursday. Today was a LONG ASS DAY!!!!!! I got up at 6 a.m. to go walking with my brother in law. We walked a little over two miles. This trail was actually up freaking hill half the time. My buns were burning. Well…where my buns would be. :P

            After that Victor juiced me a drink and I sipped on that for about an hour and then got up and juiced like 7 carrots and 2 oranges to sip on all day. Then I came home and took a shower and laid down for a sec to let my hair dry. Then I got dressed and went to Nature class, orange delight in tow. My friend Taylor and Tiffany tasted that orange glass of magic. I don’t think they thought it sucked. Taylor called it liquid carrot. Which is exactly what it is.

            Today we had a shooting assignment where we had to go to four different locations and shoot what humans have done to nature. It was pretty fun. Taylor let me use her camera since I left mine at home. After our little 4 hour adventure getting lost, almost becoming accident victims, getting attacked by a snake or a duck, avoiding getting caught trespassing, we made it back to the school where we uploaded our images, edited them and then turned them in. It was pretty epic. I then picked equipment and went to my studio to shoot for color management. Traffic is terrible in Charlotte on a Wednesday afternoon. I then went to the office, called my beautiful sister come drop off my camera from home and I got to shooting only to realize that I lost one of my subjects. Then I came home, juiced something awesome, mixed the hCG (IT CAME TODAY!!!) and then came home.

            I have to tell you! The juice I made was awesome! It w as such a perfect change to my normal nasty green juice. I’m sorry but I find it so hard to “sip” so much chlorophyll in one sitting. Ok… want to know my trick to getting past the nasty? Add cloves of garlic! I juiced:

-       1 large tomatoes

-       3 celery stalks

-       1 cucumber

-       1 handful of spinach

-       2 cloves of garlic

Strained and enjoyed with a bendy straw. I learned drinking the juices with a straw prevents me from having to deal with the foam on top. I don’t know anyone who enjoys the veggie foam that floats on top. Also strain everything if the little bits and pieces bother you. I can handle it so much better like this.

      On the HCG I can only have so many veggies and fruits. I was going to weigh in tomorrow when I do my first shot and drink what I normally do, drink a ton of water if I get hungry and then weigh in again on Friday to see if there is a dramatic difference. I’m not looking to drop a ton of weight all at once and I know juicing is against protocol but I don’t know anyone who has tried it yet. I plan on walking or doing that Pilates video on Netflix every day to 3 times a week. It’s getting pretty hot outside. Last night I did the Pilates video and it was hot as balls in my condo because the AC froze over. While I was thawing that out I tried my cheap version of “hot Pilates” and sweated a ton!!

      I hope everyone is having a great night. I came home. Did business homework and now I’m talking to my man. To be honest he’s listening to my ac run since I’m not saying anything. What a trooper. He did have pizza. Which is something that I would cheat on him with right about now. Omg, the inappropriate things I’d do to a homemade pizza. (I’m kidding guys.) I’ll keep you updated with how tomorrow goes. Then it’s the weekend!

Love you all,

Jenn

My email address is Jenn@photojennix.net. I so appreciate it. :)

Hey all! I’m finally 10 days down. I have Around 38 days to go before Jamaica. Today was a great great day. I got up and got ready for class, which started at 8. Got there with time to spare and started drinking my papaya, orange, beet and mango juice. I LOVE IT! One of each but a quarter of a papaya. I strain my juice at least three times before drinking it. I’m having a hard time stomaching the pulp, which is crap because usually I love pulp in my O.J. It was a beautiful morning and got to talk to my friend Audrey.

            After class I went home and took a nap on the couch until my sister woke up and her, my brother in law, and I went to the bank and then to the farmers market again. I swear if anyone is juicing find a farmers market. It is remarkably cheaper. We got a LOT of food for around $120.00. I started taking Omega 3, Biotin, and continuing to take B12. I started taking Apple Cider Vinegar shots to improve some things and I’m also going to try a soap saturated with tea tree oil. My nails have been growing pretty fast. I don’t mind at all J .

            I came home and we unloaded the car of our findings. Victor (my brother in law) cut open one side of a young coconut and tried its deliciousness and we were all shocked and blown away. That is incredible. If no one has tried it DO!!! It’s kind of nutty. You must drink it out of a straw and I promise you when you come up from air you will be smiling!

            It’s been a beautiful day. It was a little on the hot side while we were at the farmers market but it just promoted us to drink more water. For “lunch” I made the mean green juice from the movie. Got to say its def not my favorite. I pounded it and then read a blog that says its best to sip the juice so it absorbs into your system. Fuck me. So guess I’ll be pinching my nose and sipping.

            We took mom to the hospital yesterday to see if in fact she did have a stroke and she didn’t. THANK GOD. The doctor said she has Bell’s palsy, which kind of numbs half her face into not reacting to expressions. So you can see how we thought it was all a stroke. I was mess. I hate going to the hospital for head traumas. I can see broken bones be fixed and I don’t mind people needing stitches but people please take care of your brains. Your body needs them and my God my nerves need you to have them. My friend Susie came by to make sure I was ok and sat with me for a while. I can’t put into words how incredible that were. She doesn’t even know mom but she knew I was hurting and she didn’t ask questions. That’s what you call a friend. That and seeing my friend’s text me about praying for her or retweeting a prayer request for her on twitter. I am so touched by everyone in my life. I feel like I need to send out cards or flowers or something to show my appreciation. I might start my friend of the week back up. I have a great circle of friends. J

            The hCG is still in New York. I hope its here soon. I already can’t complete a full 40 and I’m kind of interested in seeing the impact it has on this whole weight loss and feeling better about fresher food. I look at some photos of food now and think “gross” and I’m starting to think about my cravings and what I really want. Right now it’s been fresh, perfect, colorful, sushi. I could devour some of that right now. No joke. But when I see a hamburger I can’t get past the plastic cheese and the squished bun. I’m sure it taste awesome and for the first couple of days that’s what I wanted but now I could go for a grilled chicken salad with marinated feta cheese and brightly colored vegetables with olives and a home made dressing. Uggghhhhhh. Anyway. After wiping my drool away. If you’re just starting out keep with it! Your mind will start telling you how great it’s feeling and start craving something that is as fresh as you’ll begin to look.

            I hope everyone has had a great day. 6 days until I weigh in again. I’m excited what all has come off. Especially once the hCG gets started.

Stay classy!!!!

Love,

Jenn

P.s. give Marc crap for having great fun in San Diego with out us. He’s probably on a golf course right now. Don’t feel guilty Marc, I’m just ridiculously jealous.

Hey,

So today marks Day 9! And I’m 10 pounds lighter than day one. Part of me wishes it was more but hey, it’s a start. Yesterday I got up took a shower, drank fruit juice and got dressed and headed over to the office where I was continuing to help Jess with her final. We went home and started immediately editing a video she did for her class. I then came into the den and watched TV until I needed help every once in a while. 

I’m ready to start the HCG. I want to see how it works now that I’ve detoxed for a week. I was feeling really bummed out last night thinking that was only 8 days and I have so many more to go. Today I woke up much more positive and was glad to see the 10 pounds gone but I was then frustrated with some technical difficulties we were having with my computer. After I was tinkering around with that something in my back slipped again and I wanted to cry. Victor said we should go walk it out and while on our little walk we found all these tadpoles! There are hundreds of them! I went and got a jar and we caught about 20. I don’t know why we were so amused. It was fun picking them up and seeing how far along in the tadpole to frog process they were. We found some babies and then some mac daddies but we didn’t find any that had legs or anything. I know it’s only midday so I might add more on later. I’m trying to take photos for my midterm tonight and then this weekend I need to really try hard and get ahead again.

It’s hard juggling 3 things at once. I love keeping up and sustaining a relationship and that takes up about 40% of my mind, juicing and dieting is taking up around 40% of my mind so really school is in a very small 20%. I’m only here for a short time after this. I need to figure out how to really focus and get pumped for learning like I used to be. I love nature and I’m enjoying my special topics. Just color management is pretty dry (respectively?) and business is depressing when we get to know where our money is headed. Makes me even more politically charged which doesn’t really need to happen. This week and weekend I need to figure out what all I need to do and freaking DO IT.

Mostly charged I’m ready to take on something but picking which one to take on (top three things on my mind) to dive into. Marc is good about taking the backburner when it comes to school and juicing God knows that’s practically all he hears about. Right now I’m worried about Mom. She has had ridiculously high blood pressure in the past and the juicing is helping it come down from 200 to 170. This morning she woke up and half of her face is numb. My brother in law thinks it could have been a mild stroke. I’ll update you on what comes out of that.  I don’t think it’s the juicing. She might need some lean meat in her system or something.

Some people may be asking “did you consult a doctor before doing this?” NOPE. We are constantly checking out blood sugar and blood pressure but after watching the documentary, and seeing how the doctor treats the hero that lost from 420 lbs., I’m not interested. She was such an ass to him, I felt. He even gave her a taste of what he’s been drinking and made the ugliest face. I know there may some doctors out there want to help but for the most part they are all the same. I might be a little bitter from not being diagnosed with PCOS when it was first a problem and letting it wait until it was full fledge problem to take a look. I don’t want to be on medicine anymore. Why poison the public so you can have certain luxuries. I know there are a handful of dedicated doctors out there who got into the practice to help people. But unless I’m being charged the same as layer fees to see one I think doing this on our own is all right. Again we are keeping track of blood pressure and blood sugar.

When it comes to Mom she could have had something serious brewing this entire time. We are going to get her checked out and see what’s the deal.

The HCG should come either today or tomorrow. I’m excited to start that and see what kind of other results we can gain from the juicing. I’ll let you know. If you know of anyone who has tried HCG while juicing before refer me to him or her! I’d like to ask them some questions.

Love you all,

Jenn